Chalet, Chalet, Chalet... It was fun, I think... The good thing about things like this, you get to observe how different people are and how they react to different situations... Spent lots of time playing scrabble, playing guitar and talking nonsense with people...

The first night was spent reminiscing about the time I spent with Eileen at Sentosa... A small group of us went for a walk and we found ourselves at the 'pond/ fountain' near the entrance to the merlion... It was there where all the memories started rushing back... I could remember with such vivid detail the things that happened on that day... And the thing that hit me the hardest was remembering how happy she was... After a while, I walked away from the group to the bench that we had sat on. It was beside a vending machine.. Sentosa was the only place I hadn't gone to 'get over her'. So it affected me quite a lot... Spent a few minutes on the bench. Needed to clear my head... I had already known that I'd be like that because on the way into Sentosa earlier, I had passed by the gardens near the musical fountain and I felt that sharp pang...

WHY ARE YOU STILL LIKE THIS???
I frustrate myself... I seriously do. Its been more than 4 months. Haven't gotten very far, it seems... The more I think about it, the more grateful I am for the one year covenant.. Especially when I'm still prone to things like these.

I had a lot of fun on the 2nd night of the chalet... When we went to the beach at night to drink... Shen and I were playing guitar... Actually, he was playing all the songs and I was just backing up... Managed to come up with nice tune when we were 'freestyling'... Haha.
Most of them stayed till about 3-ish.. I decided to spend some time by myself on the beach... Needed to think and clear my head... And I have. I know what I need to do... I'll just have to do it...

I don't think its easier... I think its more rewarding. Just that the rewards aren't here yet...
Got a card from a friend. It felt like a slap in the face when I read it... But I guess I needed that. Thanks for the encouragement.